microscoping details..

it was one of the crappiest day of 2010.

i feel like leaving, but question is.. where to?

mgmt's taking me for granted and i totally hate it. i've hung on long enough and i think everything has to come to a stop. i didnt grumble or hate what i had to do or how much i had to do.. but the 0% acknowledgement, 0% appreciation yet 200% accountability is pushing me to a corner. when i say 200% it means responsibility MUCH more than i am undertaking!! i can v well admit the reason for holding on so long, is my love and passion for the brand itself. i dont want to be childish and tell you im gonna leave because i want to see how you guys manage w crisis, BUT leave, because i hope you ppl will soon learn to appreciate, and have a heart for dedicated staff.

if the hierarchy shit stays like that, that part-timers are "despised", THEN SO BE IT. ah gong will be so sad if he sees this phenomenon of 101% injustice. 

outlet ranked no.1, so what? to give kudos to a someone who hvnt even been w me for a month @ this outlet, already shows alot. so thanks!

i got your message perfectly and am hoping to do something abt it. 

awesome read from: http://www.gotquestions.org/book

ought to make such sharing a habitual thing =x i mean i'm sorry if you're an aethist; im not forcing you to read anything from this space ANYWAY!

gotquestions.com often answer thought-provoking questions! cool stuff. :)

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Question: "Why are there so many religions? Do all religions lead to God?"

Answer: The existence of so many religions and the claim that all religions lead to God without question confuses many who are earnestly seeking the truth about God, with the end result sometimes being that some despair of ever reaching the absolute truth on the subject. Or they end up embracing the universalist claim that all religions lead to God. Of course, skeptics also point to the existence of so many religions as proof that either you cannot know God or that God simply does not exist.

Romans 1:19-21 contains the biblical explanation for why there are so many religions. The truth of God is seen and known by every human being because God has made it so. Instead of accepting the truth about God and submitting to it, most human beings reject it and seek their own way to understand God. But this leads not to enlightenment regarding God, but to futility of thinking. Here is where we find the basis of the “many religions.”

Many people do not want to believe in a God who demands righteousness and morality, so they invent a God who makes no such requirements. Many people do not want to believe in a God who declares it impossible for people to earn their own way to heaven. So they invent a God who accepts people into heaven if they have completed certain steps, followed certain rules, and/or obeyed certain laws, at least to the best of their ability. Many people do not want a relationship with a God who is sovereign and omnipotent. So they imagine God as being more of a mystical force than a personal and sovereign ruler.

The existence of so many religions is not an argument against God's existence or an argument that truth about God is not clear. Rather, the existence of so many religions is demonstration of humanity's rejection of the one true God. Mankind has replaced Him with gods that are more to their liking. This is a dangerous enterprise. The desire to recreate God in our own image comes from the sin nature within us—a nature that will eventually “reap destruction” (Galatians 6:7-8).

Do all religions lead to God? Actually they do. All but one leads to His judgment. Only one—Christianity—leads to His forgiveness and eternal life. No matter what religion one embraces, everyone will meet God after death (Hebrews 9:27). All religions lead to God, but only one religion will result in God's acceptance, because only through His salvation through faith in Jesus Christ can anyone approach Him with confidence. The decision to embrace the truth about God is important for a simple reason: eternity is an awfully long time to be wrong. This is why right thinking about God is so critical.

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hope toro papa is reading this! :)

you felt like you were the only one suffering all the unspoken grievances.. while im the selfish one, waiting for things to happen and go my way. 

you're the one attempting to make every effort, while im the one waiting to see effort to be put in.

how hurting can this get?.. sakugo. issai.

 woo! its cny again. time is passing really fast man. 

things got a lil bit different.. and a lil better this yr. all cny visitations (xcept for my grandma's place on cny eve & cny itself) actually stopped after my parents divorced. but it seems like, the visitations are resuming again. at least more happening this time round. hvn seen some relatives for a really long time, and i felt really glad i was able to meet them again.

mixed feelings.

well, for that span of 7, 8 yrs.. many things changed. i almost forgotten how to greet some of my relatives. =x but hey come on, chinese families are different ok! and we have to address elders in our own dialects. so yea.. lol.

went to one of my aunt's place (dad's cousin) this yr. i think i last saw this grp of relatives like more 10 yrs ago. and fair enough, all of them already couldnt recognise me.. tho i know all have advanced in yrs.. i still hold them w high regards like how i saw them when i was still a kid. haa. everything's just trying to tell me that time is passing faster than we can even realise it luh.

those childhood playdays where we used to be so close.. have passed, we're all adults now. the seeming existence of a transparent veil of pride and awkwardness in between. not that we're too proud to talk to each other, just that we do not know where to begin.. 

on the happier note........ i was uber glad that we had a SU gathering this yr. super glad. =) kudos to alvin for opening his place this cny! rawk luh bro. hahha.. no doubt all of us became a few yrs older, the bond was still there. the JOKES were still there. the past rumours/scandals/happenings still remains in our memories.. haha... the awesome TP, the happening SU. =)

okay. im totally looking forward to the start of coming sch term. am hoping to register this coming fri, thats if my transcripts have reached me! haa! 

hope whoever's still reading this have a great cny! keep the bond going ppl! =) love y'all.

p/s: will try to upload pics to fb soon! 

wanting to live like how God wants me to.
wanting to serve like how God expects me to.
wanting to love like how God loves me.

God, pls lead me.

back from my long awaited europe trip. lotsa unpacking and photo-uploading to do..

i need a wee bit more time cos im working almost everyday once i got back frm my 11days of holiday. well its back to hard reality again..

バリバリ~

its scary how two persons can be so alike. i keep seein reflections of me in jocelyn! gosh. especially in the way we think/view things..

but somehow, i feel she's the better twin.. who really carries herself off very well. ever so eloquent and intelligent. rah.. then again. i'll miss you terribly when you leave for perth. im happy for you, yet feelin sad for myself @ the same time, for having to lose such great company like you. =(

do me proud, my future dentist twin.

i thought alot after today's session. felt v sad and tears rolled uncontrollably.

will today be the last time im doing your makeup for you?

who would ever know.. beautifying someone close to your heart can be such a wonderful thing? i know it can, but im just sad that i may not have the chance again..

but honestly, thank you so much for believing in me and letting me live my dreams. your words and encouragements meant alot to me, and i want you to know that i really really appreciated it. your compliments w regard to my works never fail to make me feel that being your MUA was the most fulfilling job ever.

so thankyou dear friend..


p/s: babe, pls remember i'll always be here for you k.

i will leave.. and i will be happier than before.

some photos frm short getaway trip to penang.